school, school, school. the worst friday ever since school started. i swear! not only was the day really long, but urgh. okay you know, i know. and i really bleedy wanted to spit all sorts of vulgarity at that point in time. i cant believe how bad my luck can possibly get. but whatever.
moving on!
went for prayer and power night. and i think i really prayed for alot of things, as well as gave thanks for. (honestly, i sometimes wonder if God will ever get bored or annoyed after listening to my prayers. especially when i turn really whiny. heh) but something struck me at some point. the pastor was preaching on "breakthrough" and i really couldnt think of anything at first. i mean, come on, my personal problem has been resolved. what else would i need a breakthrough for? but it suddenly dawned on me that my relationship with God isnt that close? and my life is just not fully utilised yet. is there something stopping or holding me back from moving forward? i dont know. and soon after, mel turned to me and told me to perhaps pray that God would "use" me. im sure He has plans for each and every individual out there. but i dont know whats mine yet. sigh.
ohwells. but on a funny note, when i told my mom about how i felt, she went "SO DO YOU WANNA BE A PASTOR'S WIFE?" and i was like, wtf LOL. whatever man. i dont think its easy at all to be the wife of a pastor, or be a pastor. cos that would also mean giving up the luxuries in life! its definitely gotta be a calling. :)
