Tuesday, December 05, 2006 ; 9:59 PM
didnt actually have the mood to blog. but since i dont feel like whining to anyone, id just say it all out here. a good friend and my mei broke up. what a devasting blow. not really for me, but for my mei. im just
really disappointed with this friend of mine. there are so many things going through my mind. questions, to be more precise. seems like im forever drowned with queries. the price to pay for being born with an inquisitive mind perhaps?
and once again, im reminded of jeffrey. have i not gotten over him yet? i thought i was doing a fine job over here at my side. guess not now. or maybe its because its his fucking birthday tomorrow. i dont know. but
it doesnt matter. not anymore.
what really frustrates me most is the fact that most teenagers just get involved without feeling responsible for their actions. being in a relationship really does require commitment. if youre planning to just have a for fun one, for like one or two weeks, why not just state it clear in front of the other party right at the start? (then the aspect of being honest with each other comes in)
or if you think you both wouldnt last long, why even get involved? fuck it.
why get into a relationship when there isnt love? okay, even if its a like, it has to be to a decent extent before entering one, dont you think? damn it. dont fucking get involved on impulse. just because you had a crush on this person for a short period of time. you would end up hurting the other person. and you dare tell me you like the person? wake up, if you love/like that person, you wouldnt even get involved to begin with. because you wouldnt wanna hurt the other party.
how could someone expect their significant other to change for them? if you love a person, you would accept him/her for who he/she is. not because of what he/she will become and change for your sake. oh my fuck. damn annoying. i cant stand it. its like asking that person to lose himself/herself. (must admit i was once foolish enough to wanna change for a guy as well, but not anymore.
never)
to think she is still willing to sacrifice her everything for him. love is blind.
there is so much more i wanna say. but lets just drop the topic for now. gonna play solitaire with eugene and brush this matter outta my mind! :D
