Monday, October 30, 2006 ; 1:31 PM
happy birthday sher (hardo turtle) ! :D
the re-take of olevels chinese paper was disastrous, i swear. probably am gonna do worse for it. which is, lower than an effing c5. so too bad for me.
was actually feeling all worked up earlier on. daddy pissed the
fucking hell outta me. i cant understand why he has to be so
fucking unreasonable. :(
he just had to bring up the
fucking topic about studies, once again. and it really gets on my nerves when all my parents can say is study, study and study. the moment they open their
fucking mouth, the
fucking word study comes out. and it seems to me that that really is all they
fucking care about. my
fucking studies. my
fucking academic grades. my
fucking olevel certificate. dont they care about my personal well-being ? im still
fucking upset over that
fucking asshole, jeffrey. i know he is so not worth it, but he just floats around in my mind all the time. i miss him so
fucking badly still. and that
fucking pisses me off too. yes, the fact that im not strong enough to get over a guy. come on, he is just a
guy. what the hell is wrong with me ?
that reminds me. last night i prayed to God to have him off my mind, and the Lord really did answer my prayer. i stopped thinking about him and i fell asleep, slightly before midnight. :) so prayers do work. keep praying y'll. especially when in times of need. i think most of us really need Him to guide us through our olevels. calm us down so that we can all focus and have the clarity of mind to do the paper well and glorify His name. and now i feel im preaching. ohmygoodness.
back to the conversation between daddy and myself. so then it diverted over to the
fucking course i would be taking in the polytechnic. and that got me even more pissed off. because he
fucking speaks as though i
do-die-MUST select the
fucking course he advices me to take. and if i dont, he will give me hell. what kinda shit is this ? dont i have the freedom of choice ? furthermore, im the type who enjoys freedom. i cannot tolerate all the
fucking rules and regulations. its like a stupid restriction which we have to follow only because of the authorities. but then again, without them, it would be rather chaotic.
ahh whatever.
and i got this from coocoo;
An orgasm is nothing more than a reflex that sounds and looks no different from a minor asthma attack.
really ? O.O
