Monday, October 02, 2006 ; 4:06 PM
think im suffering from
extreme moodswings today. was so chirpy at school today, but awhile after i got home, i started getting all snappy. and am
still feeling annoyed,
for no apparent reason. yes yes, weird. :D
jon, colin, ting and i were conferencing again last night. and believe it or not, ting fell asleep half way. haha. she is pretty cute isnt she ? :D i was
nt exactly engaging much into the conversation though. simply because i really didnt have the mood. before i called, i even
cried. so that should explain it all. i dont know whats wrong with me, but i
cant seem to let go yet. still trying. and i will continue until the day i succeed. a wiseman once said "
determination is the key to success" (you probably would have already heard from me upteen times. well its once of my favourite quotes) i believe if i continue to strive on, i will succeed in letting him go. :D
i believe in myself. (that made me sound like ive got really high self esteem ! geezus) i can do this ! oh yes i can. and like i mentioned before,
denise will be strong even when it all goes wrong ! i stick to my words and will honour it. :D yeahh.
come to think of it. it was really quite
freaky. last night i shared a little of my thoughts with him, regarding sincerity. and today, two people told me something. its the situation of an
inner clique conflict with one of the group of girls in our class. cant spill the details though. :D not sure if i can even say it out, so its best to keep my mouth
shut for the time being. but i think gossips spread really fast yeah. hahaha. okay im diverting again. so back to the topic.
sincerity.
personally i feel that sincerity is
extremely important in any form of relationships. love affairs, friendship, partnership, etc. (am pretty sure many of you would
agree with me) a person who does
nt come forth sincerely is
equivalent to someone who does
nt practice loyalty at all. and loyalty towards the cherished ones is indeed essential,
if you want to build up a strong relationship that is.
but then again, some say its those who know no loyalty who manage to become successful later in life. shrugs. whatever the outcome may be, i would rather keep to my loyalty than get those billions or even thrillions of dollars. :D
i think it was because she does
nt have much loyalty towards her friends, which made many
detest her. (well at least i do know
quite a handful who hate her) it isnt so much of the because-youre-just-a-social-butterfly-making-friends-with-everyone-at-school-thats-why-we-abhore-you, but more of a
because-you-would-ditch-your-closest-friends-at-school-to-mix-around-with-new-friends kind of thing and the backstabbing part where you
bitch about your own friends which piss people off. thats the worst. to bitch about your own true friends.
its horrible. even though melody, justine, jacinth and meryl arent flawless, i would
nt go around gossiping about their weaknesses ! :D
hell not.
and i noticed she has been sticking around with my buddies, since clique now dislike her. yeah. so, jacinth and i brought up the incident today during recess. and meryl seemed
quite pissed about it. so was melody. but they were both annoyed because of
different reasons. or so i think. i dont think i wanna elaborate over here. so if you do wanna know,
just message me. im open about everything under the sun. :D and dont worry, although im
not exactly in a good mood,
i wont bite ! haha.
actually, i kind of expected this to have happened someday. ohwells. and this entry is
nt meant to pin-point at her.
it goes out to all my other readers. a
plea for all to
treasure your friendships. :D
oh yes. and justine and i went cranky during physics today. hahaha. we were supposedly during the physics olevels june 2006 paper section B, then for the very first question,
there was this picture whereby this man is running up a flight of stairs. and we noticed he skipped three steps and jumped onto the next one. and the question we were supposed to answer was "state what precautions can you take to ensure that the readings are accurate" so justine and i said he shouldnt jump up the stairs because there would be a high chance of him tripping and falling, thus causing the reading to be inaccurate. then justine went "smart alec" so we decided to call the cartoon man "alec" (even wrote that on the picture) then we wrote "alec should not pretend to be smart alec and jump steps" as our answer. (something along that line. my memory isnt too good. its failing on me at such a young age) and we kept laughing the whole time. added that he should be running up the stairs naked too, so that his mass would be accurate. :D clothings weigh quite a fair bit at times too y'know ? LOL i swear she can work as a joker after the olevels. :D sure earn big bucks ! guaranteed. consider my suggestion okay, thambelina ? hahaha.
thats all for today ! im off to take an afternoon nap. so maybe we could conference again tonight ? hmm not too sure about that. :D
