Sunday, September 24, 2006 ; 11:48 AM
my mommy was on the phone with my aunt this morning. and great news ! my aunt is
pregnant again. :D and, on top of that, she MIGHT be carrying
twins ! its so omgosh. uber exciting. BUT, the twins would
most probably not be identical. apparently she had two eggs at that time. hmm not too sure about these. i dont take biology. (and thats my excuse)
aww man,
she makes me wanna have twins too ! :D :D :D
thats it, im inspired. when i grow up, im gonna
keep trying until i get a set of twins. :D identical
female ones please. (call me sexist if you must. hahahaha) well, girls are definitely better off. at least you could
doll them up. (plus they can be your shopping partners. mommy and i are one fine example) and face it, we girls are tons more obedient than you guys. LOL. :D
also, my uncle offered me a job, after my olevels. to work in his office. am pretty keen on taking up the job, although i would be working
alone. (not with my girl friends) he works in the banking sector. and since i would most probably enter the business line, i think this experience would benefit me, in some way or another yeah. :D
but my aunt
suggested my mom send me overseas to study instead. since my preliminary results werent fantastic, my olevel results
may not necessarily be that fantastic either. furthermore, the likelihood of polytechnic students entering the nus or ntu is rather low. so she was saying "what happens if denise cant enter nus or ntu ? you would still send her overseas to get her degree, so you might as well just send her
now"
when my mom brought it up to me, i was
stunned. really. i
never thought going overseas after my olevels would have been one of my options. in fact, like many of my friends know, i have already mapped my study route out. after i leave mgs, it would definitely be to a polytechnic (chances are, to singapore polytechnic) and after which, i intend to make it into ntu. :D
then again, it is true.
life is full of ups and downs. what if my academic results in the polytechnic disallows me to get into ntu ? what am i gonna do ? probably over to smu or overseas. and what if my olevels results are that bad ? until the state where i
cant even select my own course ? wont i wanna go overseas to pursue the course i want ? maybe.
so, anyway i told my mom should i be sent overseas, she had better
ensure that the school id be attending would be one that is
reputable. otherwise, the degree i get
wont be recognised in singapore. yes, i still want to come back to singapore to work after i finish my study course. :D
hmm i dont think adapting to the environment there would be too much of a problem for me. what im more afraid of would be that i
over-adapt and
become one of them. (forgot to mention, if im going overseas, it would be to america) and we all know, americans are extremely open people. :D
one of my greatest fears would be that i would mix with the
wrong company and start partying every night. hence
neglecting my studies. and that would
defeat my main purpose in going overseas. which is, to ensure that i get my degree. (just in case youve forgotten)
another would be that my
principles would change. we human beings change according to our environment. i believe majority of the americans
dont cherish their virginity. despite the fact that i treasure my virginty now, it doesnt necessarily mean that that wouldnt change in the near future.
who knows, i might be
desperate to fit in with those americans. (chances of me doing so would be low, for now. but i think
everything is possible. so i wont rule this possibility out) and i think it would be most torturing if you
cant find a single friend in some foreign country. ):
speaking of friends, i think i would miss my pals
badly. the thought of splitting up and going into different polytechnics is already bad enough. im
very sure i would miss them. and to top it up, i
wont have a single friend there in america. at least in the beginning. aww man. ):
lastly, guns are
not prohibited in america. which means i can die anytime there ! :D but hey, just as much as i dont wanna live in this world for too long, i dont think i wanna die before my 21st birthday either. 60 would be a good age to die. at least i think id still look quite pretty in my funeral photo. LOL.
noo, even if i wanna die, i wanna die in singapore. in my own home town. not somewhere far away. i want my ashes to be placed with my loved ones. i dont think i wanna be alone even after i die. that would be damn sad can. O.O sigh, i dont know lah. think there is a 50-50 chance of me going overseas. ohwells, we will just leave it all to God yeah. for He knows whats best for me ! :D
