Monday, September 18, 2006 ; 7:05 PM
happy birthday munch ! :Dsigh. today hasnt been a good day at all. in fact, its one of the
worst out of these 11 days. and
still counting. you see, on top of my relationship problems, some girl in my class very much annoyed me. and noo, its not just me. but many others as well. just that they dont show it. and i do. its already tiring enough for me to hide my feelings in front of everyone else about my issue with him, so i dont think i wanna do the same for school affairs.
last night (or rather, early this morning) i made a decision. one which i terribly am afraid id
regret. but for now, it seems like a really wise decision. i guess i will just see how things go. am sure the Lord wouldnt give me an obstacle in which i cant overcome, even though its as though He is testing my level of tolerance now.
no more midnight phone calls from today onwards. tolerance. determination. perseverance. :D
and what annoyed me last night was that daniel was fighting with me to use the phone. like, dude, its the last time im using the house phone, so if you dont mind
please let me have it. and he just wanted to chat with this new girl called charmaine. she sounds like a nice girl though. spoke to her over the phone for a short period of time. but, still immature. so im
not really for it if my brother wants to enter a relationship with her. just as much as i want a sister in law yeah.
so, as i was saying this girl pissed me off. yeah. honestly, i wasnt against her at all at the start of this year. but i guess people change according to their environments. i guess given a position in class, obviously the pride within her rises and thus, her actions would show a different side of her. but hey, even charis isnt like this. actually, i think charis is nice. and im glad we selected her as our class chairperson. :D
okay, lets have a view of roughly what happened today in class. it was meant to be a joke. i swear. so melissa and i were saying our results were really bad so we will just go ite lah. (hey its true. if your results are that bad, youre only left with one option - to go ite. so just face it. what so bad about it ?) and then this girl too went "count me in !" and she started laughing. we all did. come on.
thats why, i dont see why you have to give that speech in front of the class today. especially the part when we jokingly talked about going to ite. and like "with this kinda results, we might as well just jump down" and then we start laughing. like, hello, you ought to know we are just joking about it. and its also a form of lightening the atmosphere. i mean, everyone looked so tensed. so engrossed with their horrendous results. and youre lecturing us about joking (becos you thought we were serious, but that obviously isnt the case ?)
and then you say we shouldnt be overly upset about the results. instead look at the positive side (which i totally agree for once) hey, so what do you want us to do ? change our attitudes and moods to the way you want it to be immediately after receiving our results and digesting it ? oh puh-lease. seriously, come on. who the fuck do you think you are ? even if there should be anyone giving us the strength now, it should be none other than the Lord. yes, we appreciate the fact that you actually care. but dont you think its such a wrong time ? and like, at this time, after you pissed many people off already ? like i mentioned above, im not the only one. there are many others. just that they arent showing it.
socio-political stuff. argh whatever. i wash my hands off. why should i care about all these. just focus on my studies lah. :D hahaha. but for now, id just chat with colin. release all my stress. like i said before, he makes a really good bitching partner !
