Friday, September 08, 2006 ; 3:54 PM
its 8th of september. sigh.
we had a rather long conversation last night, via sms of cos. (wouldnt want anyone to hear me crying for hours. thats like so, urgh) initially i was very frustrated. i couldnt understand why he had to still tell me all those, and deemed it as
just another pack of lies. but after awhile, i got hold of myself and calmed down.
as usual, many things ran through my mind. so much so that i even contradicted myself while replying him. so i told myself, i will just indirectly tell him somethings. and whether he understands it or not, i will just leave it to God. sure, deep inside me i wish he gets my point. but you know, there is really no point forcing a relationship.
if we are meant to be, we will be.
okay, this might make me sound like a staunch christian, but i really believe that the Lord would work in His own ways and im very sure He knows what is best for me. and so
i will leave everything unto His hands. for all i might know, this setback was planned in preparation of something on in the near future. who knows. :D
anyway unhappy things aside.
went to melodys house today. :D supposed to study. but ended up doing alot of chatting, using of the computer and even watching the harry potter vcd. hahaha
how disciplined we are. oh and i bought a packet of potato chips at the cheers outlet near her place. and and, HERSHEYS KISSABLES TOO ! :D hahaha. theyre so cute. melody says ive eaten it before. but i dont even remember eating them. blah, heck it. my memory is failing on me. whatever. id just binge tonight. who cares about the fats gained after which. :D
and here is a song which lyrics struck me as it was being played on my wma. here it goes. (yet another breaking benjamin song. yeah yeah, i know. they hella rock. forced melody to listen to "the diary of jane" a couple of times earlier this afternoon. hahaha poor her)
"Until The End"
So clever,
Whatever,
I'm done with these endeavors.
Alone I walk the winding way.
(Here I stay)
It's over,
No longer,
I feel it growing stronger.
I'll live to die another day,
Until I fade away.
[Chorus]
Why give up, why give in?
It's not enough, it never is.
So I will go on until the end.
We've become desolate.
It's not enough, it never is.
But I will go on until the end.
Surround me,
It's easy
To fall apart completely.
I feel you creeping up again.
(In my head)
It's over,
No longer,
I feel it growing colder.
I knew this day would come to end,
So let this life begin.
Why give up, why give in?
It's not enough, it never is.
So I will go on until the end.
We've become desolate.
It's not enough, it never is.
But I will go on until the end.
I've lost my way.
I've lost my way, but I will go on until the end.
Living is hard enough
Without you fucking up.
Why give up, why give in?
It's not enough, it never is.
So I will go on until the end.
We've become desolate.
It's not enough, it never is.
But I will go on until the end.
I've lost my way.
I've lost my way, but I will go on until the end.
U-uh, u-uh
The final fight I'll win,
The final fight I'll win,
The final fight I'll win,
But I will go on until the end
