Sunday, August 20, 2006 ; 6:14 PM
many things are going through my mind right now. far more than you could possibly imagine.
just awhile ago, i found ambers blog, with an entry of her side of the story today. dont ask me how i managed to get the link. i just have my sources. :D
before reading her entry, i must say i was still very pissed with her. especially since i thought she was the one who had mega-ed my handphone number out and all. but as i read the entry, the anger subsided. on the contrary, it was substituted an overwhelming feeling of sympathy for her. especially in the very first paragraph where it seems that she was extremely hurt by this incident and that is evident since she stated that she was crying her lungs out while blogging. to her, friendship comes before relationships. that i can understand. she is still young and hasnt gotten into any boy-girl relationship (bgr) before, thus she treasures friendship very much. perhaps that too explains why she was so pissed when i totally ignored her and decided to stay neutral initially when she was insulting my baby and all. and to amber (if youre reading this that is) let me tell you something. you werent as cool-headed as you sounded when you blogged about what you said in the buddy chat. in fact, i would say it was like, rude. and you ought to know that i cant and wont tolerate rudeness. so anyway, later i realised i had to take sides. indeed, it was a quite a tough pick. but you know something lil one ? i believe you will side with your loved one too, if you were me.
as i continued reading, i realised you didnt exactly have a good day to begin with. perhaps it was understandable why you flared up like that. but then again, what right do you have to just vent your anger at me ? im no anger bag. definitely not here for you to vent your anger on. if you had told me you werent having a good day, i might have controlled my temper better. hmms and im sure he would understand it better too. yeah.
another thing id like to clarify would be who the fuck used the megaphone. i dont know if ive turned soft or something after reading ambers post, but maybe it really isnt her. but if it isnt her, who else could it possibly be ? not many people have my handphone number. plus, i dont have that many enemies in maple. and even if it was my enemy, whats the likelihood of he/she knowing my handphone number ? one thing thats for sure. the person knew that i was in a heated conflict with amber. otherwise he/she wouldnt have mega-ed at that time. but in any case, ive written into maplesea to help me find out who that sneaky rat is. hopefully they would do something. id very like much like to find out who it was, even though the anonymous calls have stopped since 1.36pm. whoa, it lasted for 3 hours. good heavens. LOL
oh yes. and in ambers entry, i found out something, which is very disturbing. and therefore, i came to blog everything out (apart from what that statement is). yeah maybe i will find daniel or melody to talk to. theyre best to talk to. usually i can talk to my baby about it too. but definitely not this time round. ): ohwells. smile denise ! you wouldnt want wrinkles, would you ?
well thats the question that keeps me smiling. :D
