Tuesday, August 08, 2006 ; 5:29 PM
happy national day eve my dear friends.
we had a bit of celebration this morning, where we sang many national day songs (which made me feel so patriotic. hahaha). and some of us even went on stage to sing along w the MCs for today. pretty fun. its just something you wont do in your everyday life. and probably the last time we get the chance to do such a thing in mgs. after all, its our last year. yepps. after the celebration ended, we took some class photos (as usual) and we sabotaged ms ho. hahahaha. she is really damn funny. we claimed that we were gonna take a jumping shot (you know, the kinda shots where everyone jumps and the camera snaps) then after the trials, ms ho believed us and that explains why she was the only one who jumped in the actual photo shot. LOL silly silly ms ho ! but im glad she is more fun-loving. i wont be able to tolerate those overly serious teachers. theyre such a bore. no lifers, you could say.
followed on, majority of the class went together to ms gohs wake. ): just circling around the coffin, many of us cried (i didnt though. im hard-hearted please). yeah. just looking at her, many things flashed through my mind. her face was so bloated. its obvious she must have suffered a great deal. and the fact that we are her last batch of girls makes me feel honoured. hmm you could say, im glad God has taken her away from all these physical torture and brought her to paradise (which is none other than heaven. duh) and then, it struck me that, you know, God really is so merciful. He gave her a chance to convert into a catholic before He took her away from this world. im thankful. i mean, if she passed away as a free thinker, though she doesnt need to endure the pain on earth, she would be suffering from the burning fire down in hell yeah. so praise the Lord once again. His grace and mercy is incredible. :D as i walked round her coffin, i somehow just kept praying. probably ended up praying 5-10 prayers. hahahaha. and there was this calm, peaceful feeling deep down within me. i felt pretty comforted by it. i dont know how to explain it. but yes, its interesting. and for that period of time, it seemed as though all the sadness was gone. vanished. cool huh. i thought so too. oh yes, her cremation would be held this friday (at 3.45pm). a pity i wont be able to attend it. the olevels chinese results would be releasing in the afternoon. yeah. ohwells. i shall be grateful i got the chance to see her one last time. then we were supposed to have lunch together, but i didnt really have much appetite. so i skipped lunch today. so im very hungry now. hahaha. no, i did eat some food. but not much, its probably equivalent to the quantity of some desert.
so after which, i left the girls and headed for pasir ris. since he hasnt left his home and i really wanted to sit alone on a moving vehicle. just felt like it. yeah. and its the first time i visited the shopping mall at pasir ris ! i hardly go there ya know. the last time i actually went there was for, uh wild wild wet ? thats like ages ago. yepps. so we spent some time there before heading over to jurong east. i swear, it was a long journey. but he made it seem alot shorter ! yay ! :D and omfg. gina chan was at the library. i didnt know actually. until i was at the mrt then i realised i had a miss call from gina. and below is conversation (via sms) between us. words are not exactly the same. but similar.
denise : yes prefect ? you called me for ?
prefect : someone was at jurong library just now right. with who ah ?
denise : huh ? what are you talking about ? (okay, i admit i was just acting blur)
prefect : you were at jurong library right. haha. i saw you.
denise : huh ? gina at the library ? biggest joke of the year.
prefect : you were right ? yeah i was studying there. haha. yes.
denise : okay fine, i was there. wait, exactly where were you ?
prefect : at the library la ! you were waiting at the lift with ? boyfriend ah ?
denise : what makes you think he is my boyfriend ? i hang out very often with my kors too. and its even fine if we throw hugs. (yes yes, i was trying to mislead her. hahaha)
prefect : at level two. err i thought you guys were holding hands ? haha.
denise : hahaha i see. (i cant remember what else i texted her)
prefect : oh okay then. so whos he ? boyfriend right ? haha.
denise : yes yes. my boyfriend. one of the sweetest guys ever in singapore history. :D
prefect : er okay denise. good for you. okay then. dont disturb your time with him. study hard ah !
denise : wait, was anyone else with you ? any mg girl ?
prefect : i was with jolyn. haha.
when i read that message, i was like. OMFG. no way. jolyn ! eek. its gonna be super weird when i see her in school then. i mean, firstly, she was the one who was "looking after" me during my detention. and now she knows about my personal life ? i dont know, its just so freaking weird. im fine with gina knowing though. just that i wanted to play around with her just now. hahaha. anyway prefects shouldnt be so kaypoh. (even though i mentioned to jamiepoks countless of times that kaypoh-ness is a virtue. but still,
as a prefect) lol gina the paparazzi prefect ! :D
well, today is our one month anniversary (yes yes, nothing to brag about but it means something to me, so ive blogged that down) :D
a song that came across my mind as i was blogging about ms goh earlier. helna, by my chemical romance. enjoy !
Long ago
Just like the hearse you die to get in again
We are so far from you
Burning on just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
from every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight
[Chorus]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Came a time
When every star fall brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
from every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight
[Chorus]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend to leave and then
We'll meet again
When both our cars collide?
[Chorus]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
id miss you, ms goh. youd be cherished in my loving memory, forever.
